Story Time

Anyone who wants to fancy my thought I will humor you with my opinions and set it forth as principles. 

If there is no one who would humor my sciences, then there is no point in crying in the open to what people calls virtues, the inner voice of selfish good different from immediate satisfaction separating us from the brutes. 

To develop our wits, succession of trial and errors; practice, to perceive what we love and hate, or to put it simpler; what we want as good to strive against others, and what we must avoid from elimination.

            I am 25 years old humoring certain way of politics.  This will be so painful it will give you a headache and make your eyes bleed because I am a man of no authority trying to build credential from nothing.  Go ahead and Hate all you want, been hated on for the past life time.

            Let me start with a mystic story telling which we can develop a parallel from what we can all fancy. 

Let us imagine a seed planted in the soil.  The seed came from the abyss like all life, now starting its life underneath the soil.  A small shoot grows out the soil to see the surface, the first sight of sunlight.  Like how an infant finally being freed from the abyss out the womb of the mother. 

Both lives, regardless of the obstacle will direct themselves to sunlight as well as following the most resisted path towards the sun.  Because the young spirit did not come into the world first, it must live under the shadow of others life.  If it was to accept the fate of living in the shadow, the fate of the young spirit will be to become short.  The life will be devoured by some other spirit to be used as fertilizer.  An example of this would be to take advantage of submissive life, keep the life miserable and live off of its failure.  I will discuss this later on, but let us keep on fancying the obstacle of the growing spirit.

The young spirit without its knowledge will not accept the fate to live in the shadow of others.  The young spirit will seek for alternative.  It will strive to reach higher and higher without any knowledge of what the sunlight is.  Like how we search for a meaning for a higher cause, but blindly search for nothing because the spirit has no knowledge of understanding any higher cause constantly searching for alternative.

The search for a higher cause has made the spirit gain height, but still searching to strive to get a glimpse of sunlight it has never witnessed. 

Let us examine what the young spirit has experienced.  It is born to seek a higher cause without its knowledge trying to make sense of life.  While trying to make sense of life, the spirit searches for alternative, and the search for alternative is directed to gain height without ever having the knowledge of an existing sun. 

Now for the parallel of a person who will be called the young spirit as well.  The young is born to strive wanting good things in life, but the young spirit does not have the knowledge of knowing what good is, so it has to satisfy it, yet it is to become better.  The young has no idea what good is, yet passively directs to a higher cause of good, when I mention of good, I am only concerned about not being ill.

I will discuss what a higher cause is later, but now let us fancy the young spirit.  The young spirit has no idea what satisfies it, searches for nothing in particular, so the young spirit searches for nothing, never knowing what will satisfy the young spirit.  The search for the young spirit is to bury the emptiness to make sense of the higher cause, but there is no knowledge about the higher cause, but the search for the alternative good gives the young spirit growth in status trying to satisfy the void that is within him. 

Is it interesting enough to know how one individual can live above the law?

Or is the mystic view to incorporate reality not working for you?

Cure all mental illness with botanical medicine, and provide many fiction to entertain the patients.

I strongly believed poisoning myself to find a cure to preserve compassion of others was a the good thing but how I was wrong.  The more I tried to understand the illness the more I became more consumed by it.  The more I became consumed, the more I became the subject of hate.

Like the Hydra more I fought, the more I became consumed by the hate.  I had to stop attending my hate and turn my back on it.  Take the leap of faith to a new unknown path, letting everything go for compassion, to submit to the separate humanity.  How I always dreamed of someone awaiting for me, someone I adore to be on the other side of my reach.  How I realized when I reached my arm out there is nothing to grip.  Wondering if the first and last thing I feel is pain.  I can only apologize for my existence not being worthy towards my beauty, but to apologize to sacrifice myself to dying a pathetic death.  I still await for that sudden stop of the fall from the leap of faith I took.  Have I landed on a new path?

*The pain of someone getting in a car crash diagnosed with brain damage. 

I have looked into neurology and it states use it or lose it, but there must be a way besides superstition to cure physical and emotional defect of ones mentality.  I am against cheap relationship where activities and speech is always repeated, but how am I supposed to free individuals from it. 

When prayer goes to shit, to stand becomes the dream.  It is impossible to dream when cheap belief crumbles us to our knee.  People destroy each other’s dream out of amusement.  I watch people give up their dream to become someone’s enjoyment and call them friend in return.  The dreamers submit themselves to pity where they are left to be on their knees in the world as tools.

“All persons ought to endeavor to follow what is right, and not what is established.”

-Aristotle

I am in excruciating pain 

I want to cry but nobody has been there for me before

I am in pain but there is no reason for me to shed tears

I think of crying but no name can escape my lungs

I am enduring this excruciating pain

Even if I decided to cry

My tears was meant for me to be humiliated

There is no need to waste my tears for others entertainment

The only cry that will escape my lungs will be a war cry

This war cry is not meant for your entertainment.

This is my view on Buddhism. 

            As a normal being living in this world we all ask the question what is the point of living?  We search for the answer from another to verify ourselves of existence.  So what is the meaning of life? 

            I will assume that we are all afraid of death at one point in our lifetime, and I will assume that we all try to bury our emptiness with excess pleasure at one point in our lifetime.

             Because we search for this empty pleasure, we are disciplined for no reason, for action which all primitive beings do, the scientific method; we experiment with things, trial and error, call it whatever you want, but I am only concerned to state we desire to search what satisfies us.

            If we are to be disciplined to stray away from scientific knowledge what is the point of living?  Why live if the only answer people tell you is “because I said so.”  Why grip on to life if peoples search is to be ridiculed by some authoritarian. 

            This is my journey to ask why grip on to life, the very short version.

            Everybody starts at the bottom where the rest of the world is trying to disconnect children from their mother.  I can honestly tell you if you achieve a kid to be disconnected from their mother; you got yourself an anti-social kid, or a child soldier or a prostitute.  If we cannot learn from our mother how to intimidate, we will learn from the abuser how.  If I do not get my ass kicked he thinks I am a sissy, or if I do not get abused he does not live me.  Does a person like this sound familiar? 

            A life like the one I state sounds miserable, but I am only going to concern myself with the fact we all suck at life with the desire to bury our emptiness.  Fair enough?

            So we search ourselves traveling the land of misery.  Who would be the best person to ask about the wisdom about life?  Well if I am miserable and I am afraid of dying, and I want to know the meaning of life from one person?  Why not ask a person without a home, a homeless.

            He has nothing, living in miserable condition, and the most surprising thing is that he is still gripping on to life!

            Let us say I am 5 years old and walk up to the bum because to learn we must have a fresh identity, a fresh mind, the tablua rasa of a child. 

            I ask the bum, “What is the point of gripping on to life when there is nothing?”

            The bum replies, “Got to appreciate what you got rain or shine”, he lift both his arm up as if he was lifting the world, or he clearly just did not know.

            But as a 5 year old he was pointing out to appreciate the world rain or shine, just look around and just appreciate it.  That is good enough. 

            I will skip the teaching of Buddhist emptiness and go straight to the finish. 

            Meditation is a voluntary incarceration.  It is to understand you are not special, you are empty, and you suck. 

20 years later…

            With that said I will say what the bum has said came in handy.  Only thing to appreciate in life is the wind racing against your face, the water that flows downstream, and the life that surrounds us, the fire that burns, and the sky that we all share. 

            The search to bury the empty desire from absolute nothing will manifest the appreciation of what we all got. 

            My opinion on how the pre-Socratic developed.

I am letting my mind run free and asked myself something.  I believe everyone needs to serve a higher cause when they are born.  If it may be their parents or a superstition.  The individual need to learn the first basic rule of survival, intimidation.  The individual searches for a cause higher than themselves towards absolute nothing.  But to serve a cause of absolute nothing gives growth to the individual to realize there is nothing special in life, but to step out of authoritative tradition.

I call this metamorphoses.

I have used my life as a reference to built this idea to how an individual can manifest themselves overcome the world turning against them.

Please use some of the parallel’s I have made about human motivation tying back to nature.

How to Become A hero 101

Step 1) 

The first step for anyone to learn anything is to imitate.  Such as if I tell you to have an identity, you better play the role.  This is the beginning for one to hide behind an identity.

example) How a person can use a fork to have manner instead of using hands like a brute.

This category can be called as the practitioner.  The individual who lives to narrate others life, or we can call this the gossipers.  The ones who feels they need to be taken seriously by others, so they purposely take time out of their day to annoy others because of their lack of respect.

Step 2)

To transition to step two, one must learn certain manner to be among a collective.  That is why step one is important.  We can call this phase the blind obedience.  Because this is the stage of collective learning:

An example will be like: 

To eat the colorful mushroom or the colorful vegetable.  This is an example of collective learning the trial and errors.  Colorful Mushroom is bad, so there must be an individual that must take one for the team to die. 

I call this the stage of blind obedience because this is the stage where one believes s/he is serving a higher cause to become an extension of their superiors, so they justify their actions to dehumanize others is okay. 

(To make put it simple, One hides behind their ranks (i.e badge, uniform, or forced identity) trying to find an excuse to have authority over other.  Again I come back to explain the people who purposely wait to punish failure, so they have a moment to ridicule others for their lack of respect.    

Let us call this “power trip”

Why the second step is necessary for one to become a hero? It is because one must learn how to be obedient to learn as collective.  The trial and errors that came from our ancestors, this is what separates the people who buries their dead instead of forgetting about our dead.  When we forget about our dead our history as humanity and manner dies with them. 

Step 3)

Step three is self-actualization.  One is forced to be misguided from their desire and must realize it.  One will blame themselves for the emptiness which the superiors have instilled in them.

One must realize to take a step out of tradition of uniformity and obedience the collective learning, so one can attain to submit to separate humanity of beauty and curiosity. 

One cannot justify their existence by dehumanizing inferior beings, and expect to be taken seriously.  But, the superiors want the individual to get their hands dirty for the collective in return for nothing. 

That is why one must force one small step out of tradition to be called the non-believer to become a hero among the many who has been imprisoned by the pity of authority.   

The hero realized after climbing two step, that the hero was only engaged in the pity of fulfilling the life of the narrator’s, only to be sucked in to sell each other out for confidence.

I am very sorry for my writing, but I will come back to it when I feel like it in 10 years. 2012.

What I have explained earlier is the Platonic Hierarchy.  The three fold division to attain true beauty… I am more of a Aristotelian, but this example fits better to explain a good person.

My example of an Aristotelian thinking.

A good person has many traits. (those who can govern) The hero, or the tyrant.

A good citizen only has one attributes.

Every child is born to bless the land with curiosity to bring new custom to overcome the old.   They are taught right from the beginning, for knowledge is never spontaneous and need to be guided by the prayer.  Prayer which helps the soul creates fiction of the world which it will inhabit.

Like all young spirits within our lands they will seek answer about out world, so they will follow the line of least resistance away from harm, and join an intimidating collective, so the young spirit will not put oneself in harm’s way, but learn from other who has befallen before them and learn the importance of history.  The history of bloodshed and tears that no mistake shall be in vein, for it will guide the individual to fiction about their immediate future.  The young will learn that all things in life are in constant cycle to desire life.  Use that same desire against their foe to better serve their own self-preservation. 

            No spirit is ever isolated from the land, for all beasts are all social creatures.  There are few who want to govern all life.  The ruler will put the young spirit to silence, for they are the foundation of their power.  As the saying goes and I will revise, “The still water flows deep, but those who govern, surfaces and rides the tide, crushing all to silence to stillness of the deep to those whoever want to surface for self-preservation.”  The young spirit has put their own self into their own silence for following their way to least resisted path away from harm.

            We must agree that to follow the line of least resistance away from elimination is a cycle of life which we are all victim to for we learn as a collective. (How do I know gun kills people?  I am sure we all can fictionalize an individual being shot and killed because a befallen spirit which I stated above as part of fictionalizing immediate future, so we must acknowledge all consequence of nature and not just some.)

            The origin of war is love as Herodotus puts it.  To destroy love all beings must become equal.  To become equal we must become and maintain the same way of life, but as I put it earlier every child is to bless the land with new custom because of their joy for curiosity, that is the modern law.  It is for the people by the people, and not for the sovereign to maintain and encourage the same way of life by destroying love, but promoting no war. (How would you feel if there were mass orgy with stranger and mating with strangers?  Domesticating people into noble beast is no different from farming livestock.) 

            True, there will be no war, but there will be no love, no curiosity to step out of line of the cultural tradition towards new customs.  (New customs would be no racism, no scape goats, but will include science, mathematics, and higher reasoning.)

I could never get this right.  To constantly sharing oneself to the world will destroy beauty.  (I am always unfinished with my statements, which I will regard this as my concept as subject of exhaustion.  For this way of thinking in humanity we have learned to fish and overcome the Neanderthals, pass the knowledge of the solar calendar to hunt, and out manner to eat at a table as the life for humanity will not be extinguished.)

            Pt.1

The night sky holds many stars for us to make wishes, yet when it falls it lands far away from us.  Many have always wondered where the star could have fallen because they wanted to make a wish, so that they too can be divine. 

            Many conflict started to rage forcing people to form governments to look up to a sovereign state, so a king can collect all the star that fell on the Earth.  The people who has followed the king has submitted their desire to make a wish to attain peace, but peace only came to those who announced it to the mass taking away peoples freedom into oppression.

             Pt.2

            Looking at the same night sky a child saw a shooting star fall from the heavens and said, “I will only ask to have one for myself”.  The civilization the king has developed encouraged citizens to become obedient and promote socializing, so that there is no worry about the star because it was being contributed by the king as the common wealth for all which encouraged individual’s need to hoard wealth.  Such vice was no place for a child, but the state has made it possible for the child to join a group of mercenaries for the king as the scapegoats for the lower class generals to make example of stupidity and dreams. 

            Pt.3

            The child constantly looked over his shoulder because all he saw was a possible things that can eliminate him from all the ridicule he face at a daily basis that he has not much to orient himself to except for food and water which the distribution was controlled by the generals digression.    

theemotionmachine:

“If you want to build a ship, don’t drum up the men to gather wood, divide the work, and give orders. Instead, teach them to yearn for the vast and endless sea.”

Antoine de Saint-Exupery

The individual mind is isolated from one another making the human mind repetitive to understand the natural world to constantly resurface old ideas and calling it new.

2.2.12

I need accessibility to my thoughts.